The Word For The Weekend is patience

During my morning meditation, the word patience came through loud and clear. If you have known me for any length of time, you know that patience isn’t something I have a lot of. I want what I want and I want it now. Now, if you want something from me, I’ve got all the patience in the world. You want it now, but I’ll tell you to just wait minute!

What is patience? It is the ability to be comfortable in the unknown. It is being able to know that what you want may not be what you get. It is to sit in the void and not constantly be asking when, when, when.

My life has changed drastically in the past 24 months. I was living in Oakland, Calif., I wasn’t working, I was wondering where my life was going to go. At almost the last minute I moved back to my family in Kansas with no job, finances in a mess, and feeling quite hopeless.

I had been an independent woman, I had been an employed woman, I had been a fully functioning adult. And then life showed me that I wasn’t any of those things. My identity had been so tied to what was happening externally, I didn’t know who I was when that all disappeared.

I can have independence or not, I can have a career or not, I can have a responsible adult life or not. However, who I am at the core of my being does not change.

It was now time for me to sit in the void where I am something and also not that thing. It felt uncomfortable at first, confusing. Who was I without the labels I had picked up along the way? It  took much patience for me to open up to the light inside of me, and as I said, that’s not something I’ve had a lot of in the past.

Where in your life could you use more patience? Is it with yourself and the demands that you put on yourself? Is it with a loved one or friend? Take this weekend to allow yourself a moment of silence. Even if your mind tries to pull you back to who you are and are not, don’t be discouraged. It will take patience.